‘All the hardest, coldest, people you meet were once as soft as water. And that is the tragedy of living.’ Iain Thomas
This quote sums up how life has been feeling lately for me. I took a few days away from my real time Rx posts to let life soften a bit and even though I made room for the softening to occur, the ‘tragedy of living’ chased anything soft away. Tragedy is a loaded word, and certainly far too strong to describe any of my current circumstances, but I can assure you that life is hard right now.
There is a whole symphony of players in the ‘hard’ orchestra that is playing so loud for me right now, but the leader of the band is most certainly my son’s illness. Much of the progress we had made in the past two years seems to have been largely undone in the last few weeks. There is so much I need to fight for- everything from the medical care he needs, to the insurance approval to get it, to the time away that I will need to care for him. It seems that everywhere I turn there is a fight- it’s not the world I am used to…it does not help me be who I want to be in the world.
I am going to write Rx in real time whenever I can, and give myself the option to recycle old Rx’s when I need to. It’s the only way forward for now… and the best insurance policy I have against the ‘tragedy of living’ that today’s quote warns of.
Thanks for rolling with me on this… let’s all try to stay soft like water. Yes, let’s all do that <3